An incident that changed my life

Sai Ram all, I'll be blogging about how I came across Sai Baba. Baba has been in my life since I was a little girl at the age of 8. Since then circumstances kept drawing me closer to Baba. First I felt extraordinary being a part of the Sai community, learning values, enriching myself spiritually. I was very happy but then I strayed off that course in my teenage years.. As a teen we are experiencing change physically, mentally and emotionally. Even my surroundings and the pool of friends that I had changed..mindset changed, influences became a trend and aggressiveness a pattern..I had drifted from Baba.. I never knew why I was still contact with Sai devotees for bhajans..probably due to my relatives for the invitations as they were Sai devotees. So my family and I would frequently visit their  home for prayers etc...  As time past by, gradually I find myself praying in desperate times, my bad days and then it's like the need for prayers slipped from my mind when I'm happy in that phase of life... Just recent this year, after craving for a birthday surprise for my 22nd- I finally enjoyed the planned party with my best friends.. The day before my birthday, I had went for a drink with my colleagues(farewell) to celebrate her last working day..I was already unwell during the day and I had no idea why I went for the shots..maybe I didn't want to upset her for the last minute cancellation.. I regretted joining in as later that night my condition worsened and I had a birthday party to get ready for the very next day.

So I managed to look good for my surprise birthday party, I had taken meds for my running nose and fever the night before.. I could still feel the heat in my body..and giddy... But I pressed on.. It was my day and plans had been made and I didn't want to ruin the day nor their efforts. Later that evening I had a great surprise reunion with my bunch of pals. I enjoyed it a lot but it was evident I was sick. It was a clear sign from the look in my face.. We then called it a night and parted ways. The next day when I woke up I had a fever, my body always felt hot and I thought it was normal and I just needed more rest... But the next day shocked me.. I looked terrible and went to the doctor twice and was told I got infected by a disease as my immune system was low... And there was no cure.. I felt dejected, broken, torn in every way... How do I console myself or my family for something that I have that has no cure... I was shattered.. It is so unfortunate that after my pre birthday party I got a disease.... At 22... I died inside of me, blaming myself that I was to greedy for a party and regretting I had the shots the night before... I was clueless..

I cried for several days and nights..searched the internet for a cure, a solution.. And then one day, I found a solution like an ointment that pushes the virus out of the immune system.. I had nothing to lose..just had to take the chance to purchase the product and I did... Been a month I've been following the instructions and the diet plan - more RAW fruits and vegetables to detox. I couldn't eat wheat, rice, refined sugar, diary-basically I couldn't eat the foods I used to eat.I cried so bad one night because my parents had no idea I just blew myself😔 my chances of being healthy... I cried and seek refuge in articles related to Baba, his miracles and those he cured of..I read their experiences, their lessons learnt, their devotion, faith.. I felt a spark within that nothing is forever, Baba can help me. I cried the next night as my siblings and parents complain that I just stay home for a month after my contract for work ended.. How do I tell them that I've landed myself in a mess... I just felt that I needed God, needed to feel close to Baba... I downloaded the RadioSai app and placed Baba's picture near my bed on the bedside table.. Believe it or not, before I found the picture of Baba- I was crying in my room with a book of Sai and as soon as I flip the book open- there it was Baba's picture in front of me! He was like the answer to my misery.. I cried and thank the God for his darshan when I was weeping and complaining away... It hurts me to see my parents worrying about me..I tried telling them nicely that I'm going to be okay but within me I was painfully clueless...

I have been reading Sai Charitra, I'm motivated and growing in every possible way and I feel stronger when I'm down.. I know Baba knows what is happening to me..  I have been praying and chanting Hanuman Chalisa.. Hope Baba bless the world with no such pain or disease...Baba please guide this child of yours.. Please forgive my mistakes and I know Baba is pulling me towards Him..

Jai Sai Ram